seeker of recognition? (2)

im not sure how far imma go on this path. how deep imma dive. how lost imma stray. i dont know. i honestly dont.

like i bought supplies. tak tau la tu kira membazir or not.

*sighs*

maybe some will say

"buat la kerana Allah. lukisan dakwah. bla... bla..."

aku setuju. yes.

tapi, cant shake this one feeling off. like aku menggunakan niat kerana Allah tu sebab aku nak menyedapkan perasaan aku dalam berbuat apa aku nak buat. apa AKU NAK. okay?

aku paham je kalau orang lain tak paham apa aku cakap ni. mak aku pun kata dia tak paham. lol.

like,
am i doing this because of Allah, or because of me?

tolong doakan aku TT.TT Allahummaghfirli